Dr. Call

I found out today I will take the blood test Sunday! That is both so soon! and foooorrrrr evvvv errrrrr away!

I mentioned to the nurse some cramping I am having today, and while not being overly enthusiastic said that is definitely not a bad sign, and likely a good sign that implantation is occurring right on schedule!

Holy Shit! This is getting real.

Last week-Denial
This week- It could actually be happening


I must talk myself down however, because we don't need a repeat of the last cycle.

I was basically a devastated, sniveling mess for almost 2 weeks. It was 2 weeks before I could get 2 days in a row not crying. And a little longer before it was 3 days in a row. And I felt like shit.

So, we will be preventing that with a little dose of something I call "Reality."

The Reality of the situation is that we have a 40% chance of this working. That is less than half. Reel it in sister!

But it is really cool I am having "implantation cramping." I didn't have that before, we are at least a little bit more successful already!


(Notice I avoid the word pregnancy. This is protection against complete heart break. We are talking in terms of "Was the procedure successful?" and "It was successful, or it wasn't successful")