Baby O is..................

.....already a pain in the ass!! :)S and I are infertile.It's a label S and I own together. That is what we are dealing with now, the label and all that comes with it. It's not me and it's not him, it's us. Both of us have our own physical issues to deal with. He would rather me not talk about his, which I get. I call him "internal processor guy" because he can sit and think about something and feel something for an hour, 15 minutes, whatever and when he gets up he is good. He tells me how he is thinking about it, and it makes sense but that is NOT how I work, at all!I am loud, out there "external processing girl." I like to talk about what I am thinking, feeling, etc. all the time and then I feel better. So.............we blog. :) I am going to try and blog once a week while we are going through all this baby making mess. Goals are good.I was referred to the Fertility Specialist on June 10 by my regular ob/gyn. S took a test June 17, and we both went to the Fertility Specialist guy together on June 18. Basically, we were told we are infertile, there are things we can do to change that, and they will do their damndest to make a Baby O'Mahoney! That is promising. We have some friends who used the same practice years ago and they have 2 healthy babies, so they at least sorta know what they are doing over there.The appointment ended with me getting to meet all my eggs, saying hi to the 'ole uterus, and getting a referral to surgery. Boo! The hypothesis is that I have some endometriosis spots/growths/whatever on or around my girl parts, this could include fallopian tubes, ovaries, uterus, or all of the above. On July 15 I go under the knife to check it out and possibly give the girl parts a spring cleaning. It's a pretty gross and painful surgery but many times this is the cause of the baby making problems. Here's hoping.........................S is a little jealous because I can't walk much or lift anything for 3 days. He says he wants surgery too :)But if that doesn't work there are several other options to be considered, each with it's own hefty price tag. We will just have to consider all the options/costs/alternatives/etc when the time comes. I tend to get a wee bit ahead of myself so I am really, really focused on today, this one procedure, and hoping for the best. I say the Serenity Prayer about 100,000,000 times a day. It totally works!In case you aren't familiar, the Serenity Prayer is an AA fan favorite. They start and end meetings with it, and use it pretty much all the time, mostly because it works. It goes: God, grant me the serenity,to accept the things I cannot change,courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.Powerful stuff. So many tricky parts, such as "the wisdom to know the difference thing." Hmmm, still working on that part. But it really does help me think about and ask myself: "Self, can you change this, really? Do you REALLY have control here?" Turns out usually the answer is from the HP: "NO! Back off and let me do it" (HP=Higher Power).There is a breathing exercise I do and teach that goes with the prayer that really helps drive the important stuff home. Life saver.Anyways, back on topic.........I am focusing on the one surgery.That's all for today. One Surgery.
:)